so i posted this on myspace and the response has been AMAZING if u wanna check it out go to www.myspace.com/eliztheangelkid and read the 2 latest blogs and their comments. its pretty much the best thing ever. thanks kiddies! and enjoy!

dear jon,
well i have to tell you i do not plan on apologizing or backing down on my reasons for posting our conversation from the other day. a lot of people know me as someone who doesn't stand up for themself and if i do i apologize for anything that could have been hurtful. well not this time. no no no, definatly not. like i told u when you called me bitching like a woman............i could have had that conversation with anyone and i would have posted it. it just so happened it was with you, but then again i argue with you more then anyone. i find it funny b/c i mean we haven't been together for 10 months, how do we still argue? whatever the reasoning behind it i want you to know i am done.

it is totally rediculous to get pissed off and upset b/c i have one person in my top friends and not you. it is petty and childish, and i know i can be the same way. we all can. but that is what started it. of course there are more issues and frustrations then that and i fully plan in outlining them here.

well as you know, for a long time i have thought you were full of shit. well jon darling i want you to know this is still true. i don't hang out with you often and i don't like to talk to you offline b/c it is hard to talk to someone when you don't know if what they are saying to you is the truth or some sort of fantasy. it is utterly rediculous. and i know i am not the only person to feel this way. but unfortunatly i don't think the one person i know agrees with me the most would stand up and say so. so your constant tall tales add to my never ending frustration with you.

more aggravating than the lying and far fetched stories is the pity parties. let me start this part by saying when i am involved and you are trying to get pity you are the only one at the party. every time there is an argument or even normal conversation you start going on and on and on and on about how you are in so much pain or this person died or how u almost got into this or that accident or this friend stabbed you in the back. you don't help yourself in arguments, you make yourself look like a fool, so i wasn't doing it by posting the blog i did before, u have made yourself a fool. i know you have had some rough times, but u want the world to feel sorry for you 24/7 and as far as i am concerned it isn't going to happen. life goes on, shit happens people will betray you, you have to get over it and not try to use it to weaken people to get them to say and do what you want.

i am done explaining myself, i will tell you again though, i am not sorry for the other blog and if our friendship is over now then so be it, i don't really care. i will always be there if u need anything but beyond that maybe it is best that it is over. instead of focusing on weather or not i hate you maybe you could focus on your girlfriend, or quite possibly a job......i am sure your mom would like it if u had one.

thats all i have to say, respond how u wish, i can assure you i can't wait to hear what you have to say.

Liz

so yeah i posted my conversation with jon on myspace and his girlfriend left me some kind of rude comment and he called me and was goin all high school on me and sayin shit like "are you trying to say u don't wanna be my friend anymore?" and he was going on and on and on and on about how people always try to make him look bad and stupid and all this shit and i am loke oh honey you do it to yourself. so the question is...........what is the next step? should i post some kind of reply to what him and his girlfriend have said? i am thinking a dear jon letter.......it would be funny. and i mean i am tired of all his dramatic bullshit! and i know by responding i am adding to it but maybe it will all finally come to an end. so yeah, anyone who reads this........what ya think?

TONIGHT WAS FUN! i love people, i was bored so i went and met my friend from work (lol yeah i could use the name but whats the fun in that!) when he was getting off at 9.....so yeah i was like hey i am bored and we talked in the parking lot for a few and then after figuring out we were both broke we decided to go talk at his house. so almost 4 hours later i came home. hes sooo fun to talk to and it was just so easy........so yeah the only thing, was he got a lil drunk, which is no biggie it just got a lil weird but hey we all have our moments! i prolly bored hiim to death with my rambling. so yeah its cool cool! but yeah, since well the person from work is the only one that reads this, i want u to know.....I LOVED HANGING OUT WITH YOU TONIGHT! lol if anyone else reads this well let me know! i mean maybe my life is interesting to someone......lol catch ya on the flip flop yo!!!!

i just woke up less than an hour ago and i am already bored shitless. i am talking to my mother on aim and an exboyfriend and a friend i have known for forever........JON IS SOOOOO FUCKING STUPID he is fighting with me and saying i hate him and shit and i am like dude go die. i should post the convo to show my true bitch side. could be fun......god i hate him right now. jon is my ex boyfriend, hes a liar and he makes shit up to get pity form people. i made the HUGE mistake of going over there a couple weeks ago and having sex with him.........ugh we haven't been together for like 10 months but we're still "friends" that may not last too much longer if he doesn't shut his damn mouth...........i am being a total bitch to him and i don't care one bit. here is the convo so far........

shadowr2198 (12:48:20 PM): hey
disturbedfrogurl (12:48:31 PM): hi
shadowr2198 (12:48:44 PM): so y am i still not on your top friends but jess is
disturbedfrogurl (12:49:31 PM): b/c u keep asking me and it annoys me enough to not put u there
shadowr2198 (12:49:40 PM): ok then dont
disturbedfrogurl (12:50:13 PM): omg jon ur gonna make me drive all the way there to beat the fuck out of u
disturbedfrogurl (12:50:28 PM): who is and isn't in my top firends doesn't matter
disturbedfrogurl (12:50:33 PM): get the fuck off it
shadowr2198 (12:50:36 PM): the reason i think u hate me is because u never want to hang out u seem like i annoy u alot and u dont seem to want to talk to me most the time
shadowr2198 (12:50:49 PM): goddam ok bye then ok im already having a bad enough week
shadowr2198 (12:50:53 PM): i lost a 200k race car
shadowr2198 (12:51:01 PM): and i cant b compensated because of a fucking clause
disturbedfrogurl (12:51:15 PM): what the fuck jon i have a fucking life i can't drop everything to hang out with you
disturbedfrogurl (12:51:50 PM): u make it seem like u want me to spend every waking moment hanging out with you and its not gonna happen
disturbedfrogurl (12:51:59 PM): ur not the only person in the universe
shadowr2198 (12:52:11 PM): i know this
disturbedfrogurl (12:52:12 PM): u have a girlfriend hang out with her
shadowr2198 (12:52:28 PM): obvisouly concidering ive seen u about 2 or 3 times since we broke up i know this
shadowr2198 (12:52:31 PM): i do
disturbedfrogurl (12:52:45 PM): hello the first few months i hated u
disturbedfrogurl (12:53:14 PM): now i don't hate u i just have a damn life and i am not gonna fuck up other shit to hand out with an EX-BOYFRIEND
shadowr2198 (12:53:33 PM): u know u put it that y y do u even talk to me
shadowr2198 (12:53:40 PM): if im such a bother to your life
shadowr2198 (12:54:04 PM): im going outside ive had a bad enough week without more people reminding what a fuck i am ok
“shadowr2198” is away from the computer as of 12:54:08 PM.
disturbedfrogurl (12:55:16 PM): u just fucking get on my case and say i hate u or some shit just because i don't hang out with you, i am a busy person i work and i sleep and i hang out with the people around here, my brother mostly, jesus take a fucking chill pill and talk to me when u aren't acting like a woman

Auto response from shadowr2198: dont want to fucking talk
shadowr2198 (12:55:44 PM): no ok i really needed my friends this week
shadowr2198 (12:55:54 PM): ok so dont fucking say im always overreacting
shadowr2198 (12:56:04 PM): because thats how u treat me ok and u have every right to
shadowr2198 (12:56:12 PM): i lost 4 years of work in 1 night
disturbedfrogurl (12:56:23 PM): get off it drama queen i am not gonna feel sorry for you
shadowr2198 (12:56:44 PM): and with justin and lil boy getting killed less than a fucking month ago im having a hard time ok
shadowr2198 (12:56:52 PM): fuck u call me drama queen again y dont u
disturbedfrogurl (12:57:01 PM): and then what jon?
disturbedfrogurl (12:57:06 PM): what are you gonna do?
shadowr2198 (12:57:07 PM): u have no fucking clue what im going through so fuck u
disturbedfrogurl (12:57:39 PM): get the fuck off it jon! omg ur the one saying i hate you and all this shit and that i don't care
shadowr2198 (12:57:57 PM): when was the last time u even showed me u did
disturbedfrogurl (12:58:08 PM): GO FUCK YOURSELF IF THAT IS WHAT U REALLY THINK B/C I SWEAR TO GOD U SAY IT AGAIN I AM GONNA FUCKING HIT YOU!
disturbedfrogurl (12:58:29 PM): do not even play this game with me jon
shadowr2198 (12:58:38 PM): who said its even a game
shadowr2198 (12:58:51 PM): im just sick of everything right now
disturbedfrogurl (12:59:08 PM): boo fuckin hoo life is tough get a damn helmet
shadowr2198 (12:59:29 PM): ya well u know what losing that much money and time invested hits u like a rock
shadowr2198 (12:59:38 PM): im sorry u dont understand that
shadowr2198 (12:59:47 PM): but i dont have the time left to build another one
disturbedfrogurl (12:59:54 PM): i understand things are tough but fuckin a life goes on
disturbedfrogurl (1:00:07 PM): get the fuck off it stop trying to make people feel sorry for u
shadowr2198 (1:00:09 PM): yes it does its just so dam overwhelming
shadowr2198 (1:00:13 PM): im not!
disturbedfrogurl (1:00:16 PM): its not cute and no one will fall for it
shadowr2198 (1:00:18 PM): im sick of these set backs
disturbedfrogurl (1:00:27 PM): fuck you lying son of a bitch
shadowr2198 (1:00:32 PM): all im tring to do is have my fucking friends there for me like i am for them
shadowr2198 (1:00:39 PM): ok peace asshole
shadowr2198 (1:00:45 PM): im there for u but u arnt there for me
disturbedfrogurl (1:00:54 PM): right jon i am not tehre
shadowr2198 (1:01:00 PM): and your version is calling a a fucking drama qeen
disturbedfrogurl (1:01:15 PM): what the fuck do u expect from me when every conversation is saying i hate you
shadowr2198 (1:01:26 PM): then stop treating me like u do
disturbedfrogurl (1:01:51 PM): don't accuse me of shit and then expect me to sit down and listen to your bullshit and act like i give a fuck and want it to all be better
disturbedfrogurl (1:01:58 PM): how do i treat you?
shadowr2198 (1:03:19 PM): like shit u always fucking think im demanding u to come over or spend time with me im not i dont even care anymore i just dont see how u can say we are friends when all we ever do is just talk on here u always say im over reacting or im a drama queen when u know lorren used to say that alll the time when i was in so much pain from 3 shipped bones in my shoulder blades
shadowr2198 (1:03:28 PM): it fucking hurts my goddam feelings
shadowr2198 (1:03:44 PM): because i feel other than jess and dani and my parents noone really gives a fuck about me
shadowr2198 (1:03:55 PM): which is y ive just started not talking to people anymore
shadowr2198 (1:04:05 PM): im sick of feeling like this
shadowr2198 (1:04:17 PM): or having people think i want or fucking care about there pity
shadowr2198 (1:04:21 PM): i can care fucking less
shadowr2198 (1:04:26 PM): im not ever allowed to b upset
disturbedfrogurl (1:04:47 PM): then stop bringing your issues into arguments and act like it adds to it
disturbedfrogurl (1:04:54 PM): it makes it seem like all u want is pity
disturbedfrogurl (1:06:12 PM): no one ever said ur not allowed to be upset
disturbedfrogurl (1:06:48 PM): and like i said, i have shit to do my life and job and family comes before anything and you know that
shadowr2198 (1:07:02 PM): i know
shadowr2198 (1:07:04 PM): same with me
shadowr2198 (1:07:22 PM): theres just some things u dont know jess does but noone will know till i know from my surgeons
disturbedfrogurl (1:07:38 PM): see ur doing it again!
shadowr2198 (1:07:43 PM): u know finding out my friends were stealing so much from me
disturbedfrogurl (1:07:46 PM): STOP FUCKING DOING THAT
shadowr2198 (1:07:50 PM): im just idk
shadowr2198 (1:07:58 PM): listen here ok im laying it to u straight
shadowr2198 (1:08:03 PM): i have to have surgery
shadowr2198 (1:08:08 PM): idk whats involved yet
shadowr2198 (1:08:22 PM): and i dont really feel like telling anyone whats happening till it happens u know
shadowr2198 (1:08:32 PM): who needs pity it will help me feel better
shadowr2198 (1:08:39 PM): i would think that is a good thing
shadowr2198 (1:09:40 PM): liz all i want is the friends i actualply think of as my friends
shadowr2198 (1:10:05 PM): ask jess sometime whats been going on with my so called friends that i hung out with alot
disturbedfrogurl (1:10:16 PM): well obviously i am not one of those people b/c i hate you soooooooooooo much
shadowr2198 (1:10:34 PM): no i just wish ud treat me like your friend
shadowr2198 (1:10:45 PM): and not someone who annoys the fuck out of u
disturbedfrogurl (1:10:58 PM): well jon
disturbedfrogurl (1:11:28 PM): stop harrassing me about "hating" you and stop getting personally offended when i can't hang out and i won't be annoyed
shadowr2198 (1:13:01 PM): but u always are with me
shadowr2198 (1:13:20 PM): even when i didnt say that u still treated me allways like i was an annoyance to u
disturbedfrogurl (1:13:28 PM): no not really
shadowr2198 (1:14:18 PM): or u always getting pissed about my opinion about nick
disturbedfrogurl (1:15:08 PM): omg totally unrelated topic that doesn't need brought up b.c it will only make things worse
shadowr2198 (1:15:28 PM): im just saying
disturbedfrogurl (1:15:42 PM): DON'T START
shadowr2198 (1:15:42 PM): it always seemed like i annoyed u in one way or another
shadowr2198 (1:15:58 PM): listen ok i dont care u like him i dont its over with
disturbedfrogurl (1:16:44 PM): good never bring it up again or i will seriously show up and injure you
disturbedfrogurl (1:16:52 PM): thats how pissed off u get me sometimes
shadowr2198 (1:17:09 PM): listen if u want to hurt me then do it ok
shadowr2198 (1:17:17 PM): dont talk about it just do it
disturbedfrogurl (1:17:46 PM): and ur not dramatic?
disturbedfrogurl (1:17:48 PM): lmao
shadowr2198 (1:18:03 PM): no i def have my moments
shadowr2198 (1:18:15 PM): but i have always tried to b there for u ok
disturbedfrogurl (1:18:19 PM): lots n lots n lots of em
shadowr2198 (1:18:26 PM): and u havent
disturbedfrogurl (1:18:59 PM): w/e i haven't been there
disturbedfrogurl (1:19:31 PM): i have been there and u know it so go fuck yourself
shadowr2198 (1:20:01 PM): u know i dont care anymore do what u want hang out with us sometime or dont
disturbedfrogurl (1:20:46 PM): yes i do but shit happens and i can't be there everytime
disturbedfrogurl (1:21:24 PM): and tell me one more time that i have never cared about you and the next time u see me i will be beating the fuck out of u b/c i am SICK of u saying it

if anything else is said thats any good i will post it but enjoy that for now!

so seeing as i am new to this site i guess it would be appropriate to tell everyone a little bit about me (even if everyone is only gary) anyway, my name is Liz, i am 19 and i was born and raised in ohio. right now i live with my grandma (not all the fun you think it could be) and work at a call center, taking calls and processing claims until the cows come home (*cough* gary*cough* lol) anywho.......not incredibly fond of the job but i manage.
right now my life is a terrible bore b/c most of my friends have gone to college for the year. they are a mess those guys. lol we have fun but a lot of times i feel like i am just not with the right people. but that doesn't help me to introduce myself.......i had a pretty messed up childhood, my dad was abusive, then my parents divorced, mom remarried and that son of a bitch fucked up my life more than anyone, well besides maybe his brother, but yeah they are bastards and i hate them. so yeah a lot of my past has made me who i am today and has made me believe some of the things i do now.
i'm no goody goody nor am i totally wild, i have done my fair share of stupid things, i have never done drugs, BUT i do tend to drink every now and then. i have one tattoo and want more and the only piercings i have are in my ears. so yeah. that is the brief summary of me..............either u love it or u hate it. havea good one folks, one day i shall return to bore you more.